Tuesday, June 27, 2017

On a Mission: Little Red Riding Hoodie

The things that make Hackbright graduates stand out: our brains, our resilience, our wits, our perseverance, our ability to learn quickly, and our red hoodies.


On Friday of Week 10 we had our "Red Hoodie Ceremony" which mirrors that of the tassel thing you do during your college graduation ceremony, except that we were instead donning our hoodies in front of the familiar lecture hall instead of onstage somewhere big and foreign.

I remember when our cohort manager asked us to try on their sample hoodies to determine our size, many of my cohortmates talked about wearing theirs in the comforts of their home, which is what I would imagine many many people do with all their hoodies, and what I do as well. Some of them said the red was too bright for their taste and others said they might layer theirs inside their other jackets.

Me? I like to wear mine to all the events I've RSVP'd for, whether they're hosted by Hackbright, PyLadies, Women Who Code or anyone else. I'll admit that red is not something I naturally gravitate towards to, but in this scary post-Hackbright life of trying to find a job, I've realized that I need a cloak of bravery to tackle this thing called being-in-the-outside-world. I picture myself as "Little Red Riding Hoodie" navigating her way through the dark forest of Black Hole-ish job application portals and rejections and facing the big bad wolf known as Imposter Syndrome who's ready to devour any confidence she has in herself. Okay this metaphor is getting a little out of hand, but you get what I mean.

Although I don't like drawing attention to myself, I've found the Hackbright red hoodie to be almost like a rest stop next to a long stretch of highway. It signals familiarity and comfort. There have been quite a couple of times I've been approached or recognized by a fellow Hackbright alum because of my red hoodie, and likewise I also feel a huge sense of relief when I spot a red hoodie in a sea of unfamiliar faces.

And in those moments of warm welcomes I feel like I'm exactly where I belong.

First Day of Life After Hackbright: Done!

Hackbright ended last Thursday, but today felt more like the official first day of "fun-employment" to me since it's Monday and everyone is at work/class and I'm not. I have not had unstructured free days to myself since...forever. College is probably the closest time I came to having huge chunks of time to myself but even then my weeks were still more or less whipped into shape by classes, side jobs, business org meetings, events, and more.

Now, I get to dictate what I want to do, and when I want to do it. I can choose to study, whiteboard, attend meetups, work out, eat, or even not do any of those things. It's liberating and nerve-wracking at the same time because for some reason I feel like I have more pressure to be productive more than ever. There's nothing telling me I can't continue studying because the material will be covered in later weeks, or that I need to go to bed early because there's an early lecture in the morning.

So what did I do on my first day post-Hackbright? Now that I think about it, quite a bit actually! I....

  • Woke up at 8am and cooked some breakfast
  • Studied and job searched
  • Went on a run around the sunset reservoir
  • Grocery shopped
  • Cooked lunch
  • Studied more
  • Sent some emails
  • Learned the concept of memoization for recursion(!)
  • Attended an Algorithms & Interviews meetup hosted by Women Who Code at Demandbase (and saw a few of my cohortmates!)
  • Listened to a great podcast on applying design thinking to my life 
  • ...and will have blogged about my day!

One thing I do need to make sure I do better on is follow my calendar schedule. It's so easy for me to jump from coding on Hacker Rank to finding job openings on LinkedIn to writing emails when I should really be sticking to one thing for at least a half hour to an hour at a time. It's hard not to get distracted since this job search is a multi-pronged approach, but focus is key and I need to make sure I give all dimensions the attention they need.

We'll see how things fare tomorrow! As of now I pretty much have my evenings booked for events this week, so that just means I need to make sure I get more studying done during the day. Fingers crossed!